December 14, 2010

A Lump in the Road

Dear Mom,

I've been having an aching feeling in my armpit for the past few days. I figured I pulled a muscle or strained it somehow... until I found a lump while I was in the shower this morning. I immediately started bawling and called our doctor (I still go to the same doctor that found your cancer even though I have moved 2.5 hours away... I trust her, and she just gets me and my obsessive worry over my health). She is out today, but her assistant recommended I go to an Urgent Care clinic in my area as soon as possible. I am leaving in a few minutes.

Dad and Gisele tried to reassure me that it's probably just a random swollen lymph node that's causing me pain, but all I can think is cancer. Plus, I'm going to my appointment alone. Isn't that how it works? No one comes with you to your appointment because there's no way anything like that could happen to you, and that's the day your life changes.

Please don't let it be cancer. Please, please, please.



  1. So glad you are going in right away. I won't give you any platitudes. I'll just wish you all the best. Please let us know soon how you are.

  2. Sending a RIDICULOUS amount of positive energy your way. Seriously, Guinness called, they're thinking of just handing you the record.

    Take care of yourself, and don't forget to breathe.


  3. Not a cancer lump. THANK GOD. I just about cried when he said I'll be fine after 10 days on some antibiotics. Relief doesn't even begin to describe it. Thank you all for your support; I can always count on you. I am lucky today for many, many reasons.