Dear Mom,
Today I took it upon myself to continue growing my blog audience. Not that Gisele, Aunt Dot, and a few other people here and there aren't enough of course, but my hope, as you know, is to have my words reach someone that can pass this on to people who could really use them. So what better way to do so than to google 'blogs about cancer'? Geeenius. A few dozen people just received a notification that some girl in Maine writing letters to her deceased mother is 'following' them. Not at all creepy, right? [For those of you just tuning in, read my 'about me' before continuing!]
My criteria on which blogs to start following was simple- read the first paragraph of the most recent blog post, and if, in that 30 seconds, I have done any of the following:
1. laughed
2. cried
3. related to the author
4. stayed awake
then, congratulations! You made the cut! Lets be friends!
On a more serious note, I think reading some blogs about actual survivors and those still fighting will be a nice change of pace (especially as I finish up reading Diary of a Dying Mom in these next few weeks). And after recently coming across statistics like 'one in every three women will develop cancer in her lifetime', it doesn't hurt to remind myself that not everyone's story ends the way yours did. If cancer ever comes knocking at my door someday, I'm going to need to remember that.
Missing you,
Sami
P.S. I just realized I have my first follower ever! Thanks Alli! What a great start to my day.
Samantha,
ReplyDeleteThank YOU for stumbling across my blog, and reading, and following it. I think that you have an amazing idea going here. I'm a big believer in writing things down. When I have something truly important to say, I write it in my planner (my lifeline). Now, I blog about the big stuff so I don't have to write it down. You are such a big help. You write so that others who feel it (but are afraid to write it) can let it out. You are wonderful, and I wanted to let you know that you have made me smile. Today is my one year Cancer-versary, and it's people like you who make me realize what the good in this is all about. Keep on writing!
-- Carly
Hi Carly! I finally found this comment you referred to. I write down everything in a planner too and I also make little notes in my phone if I have an idea in the middle of the night, haha.
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You're right, not everyone's story will end like your mom's, and I'm glad you wrote that. I so admire your strength & courage to confront the enormous grief and sadness that losing a mama contains. I lost my mom to uterine cancer 5 yrs ago at age 36 (me, not her!), and some days it's still too hard to talk about her. Not sure which is harder: raising my kids without her or fighting my own cancer battle without her. I'm so glad I found your blog and love reading your sweet letters. Your mom was obviously a special lady, and so is her daughter!
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